i dreamt about you again
all night long
intimately
we never fully gave in
but it felt good
to sleep next to you
last night
since
i dreamt about you again

2/26/2010

i'm in love with you

um, i think i'm in love with you
wtf
i'm in love with you?
it's impossible but i feel things
that don't go away
obsession? infatuation?
idk
idgi
i've thought about it forever
and after forever i forgot
then i saw you and i thought about it forever
so the cycle goes
for every moment of happiness
there's two weeks of emotional instability
and longing
there's an eternity of not knowing
for every minute of assuredness

and forever lasts a little longer than the time i'm awake
but i stay awake to live my dreams
because they involve you
and the real thing is better than waking up alone
again

anyways

love poems are overplayed
and cliche
and rote
and they've been done every which way
perhaps this is plain language
the absence of hyperbole
the opposite of a love poem
but it's about being in love
because i don't know what to call it
when i think about you for years
or forever
and then meet you on that day after forever
where we lay down entwined, complete
then wake and time-travel

it was the other night when forever
was about to end
that i held you closer than i ever thought
i wish we could trade emotions
like a shirt
so you could see how i fit
and save me explanations
you hate when you feel like this for a person
but it gets better every time
and practice makes perfect
so let's go pro

6/12/2011

two cowards in love

a story of 2 cowards in love

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4-11-2011

i have never gazed into another human's eyes the way i drowned in yours
i have never drank so deeply of another's essence, never quivered to the point of ache that one would look back into me
i have never, ever, felt such relief and love and joy and sadness and sorrow and ecstasy as when you silently kissed my curling lips
i have never relived a moment so many times in so many ways with so much emotion
i have never loved so much for so long and so cowardly
i have never wanted anyone more

12/17/2013

we search at length for a camp site. we have known it.  all our lives. 

in this moment, 10 years later, we could not find it. 

we found it. we found the trail. home is truly this place. it was our collective home. and remains. the home of my childhood, the structure of happiness in my mind. this place where we all exist together harmoniously. 2014? camping

The lines

I frown most of the day Face dead Brow furrowed Sitting alone in silence A keyboard warrior I long for more I long for freedom With choices comes commitment with commitment comes dedication my world has shrunk even as my universe has grown time is speeding up the choice is always live, and be living. or die