Monday, October 10, 2011


'in between jobs'
i will eat corn meal
and banana peels
to keep myself from
thinking too hard
about this nothing

but if one more
person asks
what i'm doing
this winter

i will 
shrivel
up and
fade 
like
an
80s
retro
disco
cabana
song
in 2k11



Sunday, October 9, 2011

life is an adventure

been ramping up my mileage.
40-50 miles/week. all barefoot or in merrell trail gloves.

i'll be unemployed come tuesday.

one door closes, two open  is what i keep telling myself.

the world is at my fingertips, where to go next?

if only money wasn't an issue. money. money. debt. fucking money.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

meta






conflict

Saturday, September 17, 2011

new poem up at let people poems.

my poetry is at all times one of the following three:
a) self-exploratory
b) based in memory
or
c) pure fiction/fantasy being used to depict a moment or feeling that may have been real, though the story surrounding it may be made up.

fortress of solitude

you
enter
casually,
cautiously.

step
     by
        step.

walls
protect fear
of vulnerability;
each stone delicately lain.

you
     are
         inside.

reluctance,
vague uncertainty -
but it's hard to turn back
while the garden's in bloom. 

Thursday, September 8, 2011

i am so fragile

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

sleep, dreams

last night i had such an intense dream that i came sprinting out of my bed fleeing towards the kitchen to take on (what i thought) were intruders in the house. i was filled with an animalistic fear of death and a call to action. i ran out in such a hurry to take on whatever force was at my door, stopping only to tell my sleeping roommate that he had to come help quickly. my roomies had come home from the bar and spilled drinks on the ground and were yelling because of it. somehow that got into my dream and it became the sound of people screaming for help. i remember nothing of my dream except that i felt absolute fear, myself dying, and others that needed help - this was all presented to me through (seemingly) geometric patterns in my head.

i 'came out of it' after everyone in the house was staring at me like "what's wrong?!". i felt as if i was on a hallucinogenic drug for ~ 5 minutes, watching everything go by in a blurry haze and asking those around me if i was still asleep. i drank some water and retreated back to bed.

later i woke up with an intense start again, this time in a cold sweat, feeling the same excited fear but not as intense. this is wholly new to me. my mind is operating in ways i have not felt in a very long time...

Monday, September 5, 2011

f(x)=love me

write to me
tell me you
x

i've
become a painting
in
a sea
of dark blue blanket
my eyes
mould
transform
and swirl

i don't
burn in you

blink
look inward
the storm
is here
inside me
only

eleven months

nature's first four seasons with no 'her'
it's the fall 
that i stood up from
i learned to walk again

the people disappear from the streets
the wind comes around from the north
a chill sneaks into every grain of sand

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

summer2k11

holie crap RIP blog!!

hehe no j/k
the more successful i become in competitions the less i write online. IT CONSUMES MY LIEF. but it's a good thing temporarily. i've been getting 1st place finishes in the mile run, 3rd in the region for the 2k and 7th in the nation for the 2k run on the beach.

shit's crazy

ay