we search at length for a camp site. we have known it.  all our lives. 

in this moment, 10 years later, we could not find it. 

we found it. we found the trail. home is truly this place. it was our collective home. and remains. the home of my childhood, the structure of happiness in my mind. this place where we all exist together harmoniously. 2014? camping

The lines

I frown most of the day Face dead Brow furrowed Sitting alone in silence A keyboard warrior I long for more I long for freedom With choices comes commitment with commitment comes dedication my world has shrunk even as my universe has grown time is speeding up the choice is always live, and be living. or die

4/14/2011

sun, shine on this lunar rock
warm it with your light
concentrate your rays until it beams a heavenly white

moon, reflect your glow on the earth
blanket the dark of night
with shadows of brilliance

love, meet my eyes in an infinite gaze
become the moon and sun on earth
take me with you when you blink
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have you seen the moon tonight?

could you see the way in which it illuminated

her face?

as that rock drifts by

the chalky gray outline of our bodiess

bluish
the color of your You when you fall asleep
cool and smiling

i peered into your dream
replacing the fires with a calm yellow
your face broke
and you came to me

our dreams combined
and my arm surrounded you
in a soft purple glow

9/7/2011

sat and listened for a while. absorbed the grand tragedy that was her early life. took it in. head expanding, head pounding, but nothing to what she had lived.

grasp for words of comfort, solace. memories selfishly flit by. distractions.

eyes locked. swirling irises channel.

2014

my life is changing
maybe this is growing up
from now on
i am unapologetically me

"might as well be me
might as well be me"

12/17/14

take full control
and responsibility
for your life and your situation

you are a beautiful soul, shining bright
your spirit is alive
you are thriving
you have come alive
the world needs you to come alive
and your rebirth, your awakening as an emotional and spiritual being
it is happening.

savor it.
12/17/14

i exist in multitudes
i dream in patterns
the rhythm from within is a harmony

the sound of every drum
frames this universe

open your vibration
light carves into the void

sound creates heaven
the architects of new worlds

tonight is our night
build and delight

the stranger

run with purpose
through the dark woods
sickly hot sticky sweat
salty mouth, salty skin, burning eyes
you're covered in your own nauseating musk
and you love it

an owl's cry echoes off the forest floor and back into the sky
stop, search, locate
eyes narrowing to slits
the owl flies overhead, illuminated in dusk's grey haze

continue on, into the night, deeper
the stone and dirt beckon you onward
the canopy a gate to be entered
the creek a playground for your wild spirit

at last,
the arrival to your holy place
many rocks collected and laid bare on your stone
this sanctuary has been visited
worship has occurred

meditate on your strength for a moment
you are a survivor
you have come so far
brave, strong, enduring

pick up the pieces,
a foundation, larger stones after larger stones
build a cairn to the stranger
who follows next

some of the saddest words ever uttered